Jasmine (gigglyshy) wrote in phobia_support,

phobia of shots

I have a phobia of shots/needles. I'm not afraid of holding them. I'm just afraid of them being applied on me. For years, in order to get my vaccinations, doctors and nurses would have to hold me down because I always try to resist or pull my arm away. I'm 20 years old now, so they can't really hold me down anymore, which while on one hand is relieving, on the other hand it's not so great because I realize that it's important for me to get all of my shots and vaccinations. I've been told that by law doctors cannot force me to get a shot done and that I have to give them permission. I haven't had any shots in eight years since I was twelve years old. There are some that I have to get done, and blood tests too, to check the usual things like cholesterol and such. But I can't get myself to get the shot. I'm scared them, and the thought of being given one makes me sick. I was once in a doctor's office where they decided right then and there that they would give me a blood test and I started hyperventilating, crying, and shaking like mad. They didn't come near me with the needle, but told me that I need to get a blood test done. Since then I have tried things like valium and xanex to calm me down before getting the prick, but none of those things have worked. I have heard of desensitization or something that people use to get over phobias, and I was wondering what you all have to say about that...

I guess it's sort of good that I recognize the good and importance in getting shots. I am good at convincing myself of this as I go to a doctor's office. But from the moment I walk in where I know they are preparing the needle for my arm, I completely lose it. I don't freak out, but I tell them to stay away from me. I only freak out when they start pressuring me to get it done or have cornered me so that I can't run away. I need to get over this.... I was wondering what you all have to say about it. I'm not afraid of the needle itself... heck, I can hold them and play with them in my hands, but I'm always very careful to make sure the needle doesn't ever prick me. *shudders at the thought of it*
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